Thoughts on Beauty

I want to be beautiful. On the inside and on the outside.

How cliche of me, I know.

But being beautiful holds a lot of weight; at least it does for me, personally.

Being beautiful on the inside- my ideal inward self.

I want to be someone who is truly kind.

I want to put the needs of others in front of my own whenever possible, as long as the circumstances do not deeply compromise my health and well-being

I want to approach every situation with joy, and posses a state of mind that lends itself to the positive.

I want to look at the world and see the beauty in everything and everyone around me.

I want to have conversations with beautiful people, and come to know and understand what makes THEM beautiful.

I want to always have the desire to explore and discover, and to never ever underestimate a person, place, or thing.

I want to be healthy on the inside too. I want my belly to be happy, and to digest nutritious foods fully.

I want my blood to flow through my veins with vigor, and for all of my organs to harmoniously interact.

I want to be healthy mentally. I want my head to be clear of self-deprecation and hatred.

I want to think beautifully.

Being beautiful on the outside- my ideal outward self.

I want my body to exude HEALTHY.

I want to be strong and capable and have the ability to go, move, do more.

I want to embrace my femininity. I want the curves of my figure to appear, and maybe, even... be noticed.

I want to be fashionable in my own little way. I want my quirks to materialize on the surface.

I want a pretty face- something I struggle to believe I have, and desire so deeply to see and appreciate what has been given to me.

I want to be beautiful for all the right reasons and all the wrong reasons.

Rightfully so,

My list of ideal inward beauty is something that I strive to work on every. single. day. This list is a written documentation of merely a glimpse of the person I so deeply desire to be.

Wrongfully so,

My list of ideal outward beauty might be shorter on paper, but in my mind it goes on for pages and pages and pages. I only put the things on this list that don't have me running away with embarrassment. I think about these vain little things so much that they sometimes take up so much space in my puny brain that I don't have room for all the important stuff.

I plan to work on myself every single day.

I plan to take steps toward greatness ever single moment.

I plan to grow, and eventually bloom.

I am also aware that these changes cannot, and will not happen alone.

I am going to need the help of the people around me, and most importantly the strength and assistance of my God.

I am going to need help to be beautiful.

I am going to need help seeing myself as beautiful.

and I plan on one day, accomplishing both.