Relax

Day 18: Relax

I literally do not know the meaning of this word.

I honestly don't think I've ever relaxed.

I've tried to relax.

Sure.

I've done what you're supposed to do- sit down, unwind. Maybe watch a movie or read or drink a cup of coffee or lay out in the sun.

That's what you're supposed to do right?

But honestly? I am ALWAYS thinking about what I have to do next.

When I try to relax or procrastinate, I panic about all of the things I could be doing that I'm not doing.

I can think of maybe a handful of times (and they all land in the summer) of when I didn't have anything important to take care of, and I decided to take some time to "relax".

These are probably some of the fondest memories I have of my entire life, but I've come to the realization that those moments of relaxation are going to have to be few and far between for me.

I am the type of person who has to GO GO GO all the time in order to feel like I'm getting the most out of life.

So I'm going to continue going.

Continue moving,

Continue hoping that I'll be presented with moments of relaxation in the future.

Maybe once I've graduated?

With Love Always,

Bailey ♥